Good. Because I would fight my way out and I know you think this place can hold me but I would figure it out. I've never been trapped for long. Too programmed to survive no matter the cost.
( The trick to this place would be subduing Daisy herself, he thinks, but he doesn't think it will come to that. He believes her when she says she doesn't want to hurt him and that SHIELD doesn't want to hurt him. He has to believe in something or he'll go insane so he's decided he'll believe her. )
I don't want to be programmed to do that anymore, though.
You won't be programmed to do anything anymore when we're done here.
[ There's a flatness to her voice because it's better than letting loose the spike of anger that flares up in her. She'll never be able to move past the fury she feels at what was done to him. Even when he's living a life free from these shackles, she'll still rage at what HYDRA took from him. ]
But we know this place wouldn't be able to hold you for long. It's more to slow you down if something triggers you and to stop anyone who might try to get in. Both of those are part of why I'm here, too — I'm more formidable than I look.
Probably a good idea to have someone here who could possibly slow me down. I don't know what I might do if I lose my mind again and I become...him. I would never hurt you Daisy, I hope you know that, but I might not be able to control myself if I'm under.
( He fears it more than anything, honestly, and he doesn't know how to protect himself from it. Daisy says they're working on that and he won't have to worry but he thinks he'll always worry about this. )
I'll do anything to protect you from him, Daisy. You have my word.
[ It feels like too little to say in the face of what he's promising her, but what else is there? They both know there's no guarantee it won't come to that, or that she won't have to take him down to stop him from hurting someone else. All either of them can do is promise to try.
She takes another sip of her coffee before gesturing out the curtained window at the daylight beyond the unbreakable glass. It's a bit cloudy but the Alaskan wilderness will still be breathtaking to behold. ]
So, James, how do you want to spend your day? You've got lots of options and it's entirely your call.
I guess I should probably catch up on some history. I know what I did but there's a hell of a lot of the world that I missed and I think I should get started on learning major events so I'm not...lost. I think I'll feel more grounded.
( James thinks he likes history, actually, but he's not really sure because he doesn't know what he likes and dislikes yet. Maybe he'll learn in the process of talking to Daisy about things today. )
Does that sound like something we could do? I know we can't cover everything in a day or anything but we could start.
[ History probably is a good place for him to start, come to think of it. He's missed a lot in the last seventy-some years, and he'll be able to fit in and understand today's world better if he knows the events that shaped it.
Nodding with a smile, she stands, picking up her coffee and turning to head to the couch set in front of the shiny new flat-screen TV. ]
Come on, I'll introduce you to the wide wonderful worlds of YouTube and Wikipedia.
[ There are a few 'Major Events of the Twentieth Century' videos she'd bookmarked for just this purpose. Broad overviews that would give him a big picture understanding and a jumping off point for figuring out what he'd like to know more about. ]
( James recognizes the technology even though he hasn't ever used it. He's used advanced weaponry - remote bombs, grenades launchers, RPGs - but he had been more in the interest in disabling technology than using it for anything. The Winter Soldier doesn't need technology. James does, though, if he intends to live in the world again. )
I don't think you're gonna be shocked if I tell you I don't know what either of those are. I think that mounted thing is a television but that's just because I've shot a couple in my day. I've never used one for the intended purpose. I don't remember being a kid or being in school but I guess that's what today is, huh? Going to school to catch up on what I missed?
[ It's an adorable way of looking at it, to be honest, and one that she will happily reinforce. Daisy does her best to be a good teacher, trying to show and explain things to Bucky without seeming condescending or making him feel like an ignorant child. Missing so many decades of technical evolution might have him at a slight disadvantage, but if he wants to learn, she'll teach him everything she knows. (Well, not everything, unless he really wants to learn hacking...)
Hours go by as she shows him how to navigate menus and adjust settings, followed by actually watching content and reading articles. History isn't exactly her forte, that's more Coulson's deal, but she's a master at internet searches and has no problem finding the answers to his questions. By the end of their impromptu tutoring session, she's offering to get him a tablet of his own so he can continue his research whenever he wants. ]
You sure I'm gonna be good at this with the metal hand? I'm a rightie, so that helps, but I might end up crunching your little tablet if I'm not careful.
( It's a joke, though, and he grins. James isn't sure if this is who he is or not but he's in good spirits after learning things all afternoon and he's found that he likes Daisy, a lot, and if he has to be in prison at least the warden is a lot of fun.
He swipes at the tablet the way she showed him and it turns a page on the website he's reading about the late 1970s. He'd been frozen then and he has no idea what happened. )
Can you get books on these things? Or just the internet?
We'll put a case on it. [ She counters easily and playfully, not the least bit concerned about stepping on eggshells regarding the metal arm. If he can make jokes about it, then so can she. ]
Just about any book you could possibly want can be found on the internet, and subsequently in SHIELD's library. I'll make sure you have full access so you can browse to your heart's content.
[ She wonders what sort of books he used to like to read before the war. What were his interests back then? Will they be the same now as he struggles to find himself again, or has life changed who he is on such a fundamental level as that? ]
So every single book I could ever want could be right here on this little thing? I don't think I can believe that but you look honest so I guess I have to believe it just this once. I'll have to do my own investigation.
( It's full of information right now, though, and it's absolutely fascinating to see what he's missed and the things he wasn't involved in. Bucky thinks he's going to have his head in this thing for a while and if SHIELD expects anything different, he might disappoint them. )
I'm old and traditional, though. I'm used to paper.
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( The trick to this place would be subduing Daisy herself, he thinks, but he doesn't think it will come to that. He believes her when she says she doesn't want to hurt him and that SHIELD doesn't want to hurt him. He has to believe in something or he'll go insane so he's decided he'll believe her. )
I don't want to be programmed to do that anymore, though.
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[ There's a flatness to her voice because it's better than letting loose the spike of anger that flares up in her. She'll never be able to move past the fury she feels at what was done to him. Even when he's living a life free from these shackles, she'll still rage at what HYDRA took from him. ]
But we know this place wouldn't be able to hold you for long. It's more to slow you down if something triggers you and to stop anyone who might try to get in. Both of those are part of why I'm here, too — I'm more formidable than I look.
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( He fears it more than anything, honestly, and he doesn't know how to protect himself from it. Daisy says they're working on that and he won't have to worry but he thinks he'll always worry about this. )
I'll do anything to protect you from him, Daisy. You have my word.
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[ It feels like too little to say in the face of what he's promising her, but what else is there? They both know there's no guarantee it won't come to that, or that she won't have to take him down to stop him from hurting someone else. All either of them can do is promise to try.
She takes another sip of her coffee before gesturing out the curtained window at the daylight beyond the unbreakable glass. It's a bit cloudy but the Alaskan wilderness will still be breathtaking to behold. ]
So, James, how do you want to spend your day? You've got lots of options and it's entirely your call.
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( James thinks he likes history, actually, but he's not really sure because he doesn't know what he likes and dislikes yet. Maybe he'll learn in the process of talking to Daisy about things today. )
Does that sound like something we could do? I know we can't cover everything in a day or anything but we could start.
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Nodding with a smile, she stands, picking up her coffee and turning to head to the couch set in front of the shiny new flat-screen TV. ]
Come on, I'll introduce you to the wide wonderful worlds of YouTube and Wikipedia.
[ There are a few 'Major Events of the Twentieth Century' videos she'd bookmarked for just this purpose. Broad overviews that would give him a big picture understanding and a jumping off point for figuring out what he'd like to know more about. ]
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I don't think you're gonna be shocked if I tell you I don't know what either of those are. I think that mounted thing is a television but that's just because I've shot a couple in my day. I've never used one for the intended purpose. I don't remember being a kid or being in school but I guess that's what today is, huh? Going to school to catch up on what I missed?
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[ It's an adorable way of looking at it, to be honest, and one that she will happily reinforce. Daisy does her best to be a good teacher, trying to show and explain things to Bucky without seeming condescending or making him feel like an ignorant child. Missing so many decades of technical evolution might have him at a slight disadvantage, but if he wants to learn, she'll teach him everything she knows. (Well, not everything, unless he really wants to learn hacking...)
Hours go by as she shows him how to navigate menus and adjust settings, followed by actually watching content and reading articles. History isn't exactly her forte, that's more Coulson's deal, but she's a master at internet searches and has no problem finding the answers to his questions. By the end of their impromptu tutoring session, she's offering to get him a tablet of his own so he can continue his research whenever he wants. ]
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( It's a joke, though, and he grins. James isn't sure if this is who he is or not but he's in good spirits after learning things all afternoon and he's found that he likes Daisy, a lot, and if he has to be in prison at least the warden is a lot of fun.
He swipes at the tablet the way she showed him and it turns a page on the website he's reading about the late 1970s. He'd been frozen then and he has no idea what happened. )
Can you get books on these things? Or just the internet?
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Just about any book you could possibly want can be found on the internet, and subsequently in SHIELD's library. I'll make sure you have full access so you can browse to your heart's content.
[ She wonders what sort of books he used to like to read before the war. What were his interests back then? Will they be the same now as he struggles to find himself again, or has life changed who he is on such a fundamental level as that? ]
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( It's full of information right now, though, and it's absolutely fascinating to see what he's missed and the things he wasn't involved in. Bucky thinks he's going to have his head in this thing for a while and if SHIELD expects anything different, he might disappoint them. )
I'm old and traditional, though. I'm used to paper.